Relieved.

Hey there~ 

The event I organized ended this evening. I'm not happy in the result. I can see my mistake. What can I do is just watch and help the Program bureau changed the flow of the event. 

T__T

I cried in my car last night. I purposely took the long way to go home just to cry. It did help. At least, I don't feel like crying much today. 

But, I still need him. 

I know I can't reach him so what can I do is just letting him go. I'm letting him go by tonight, in the next morning I'll be remembering him again. Haha. Stupid me. An over stupid me. 

I saw JYJ - In Heaven MV. I understand why Ji Hyo kill herself. She loves him so much but she can't be by him. So, what is the use? It is better for her to go. 

or

I'm a burden to him. I can't control myself from loving him, missing him and disturbing him with his work. It is better for me to go and let him free. 

Junsu look so much like him, especially the sad smile and the poker yet sad face. 

The last image of him is his sad smile when he look at me while walking away. At that moment, I start to feel the burden in my chest but I ignore it. Now, I think I know why. 

I guess that's all for today. Bye bye~